AS HE
put his hand to the door-knob Winston saw that he had left the
diary open on the table. DOWN WITH BIG BROTHER
was written all over it, in letters almost big enough to be
legible across the room. It was an inconceivably stupid thing to
have done. But, he realized, even in his panic he had not wanted
to smudge the creamy paper by shutting the book while the ink was
wet. He drew in his breath and opened the door. Instantly a warm
wave of relief flowed through him. A colourless, crushed-looking
woman, with wispy hair and a lined face, was standing outside.
'Oh, comrade,' she began in a dreary, whining sort of voice, 'I
thought I heard you come in. Do you think you could come across
and have a look at our kitchen sink? It's got blocked up and-' It
was Mrs Parsons, the wife of a neighbour on the same floor.
('Mrs' was a word somewhat discountenanced by the Party -- you
were supposed to call everyone 'comrade' -- but with some women
one used it instinctively.) She was a woman of about thirty, but
looking much older. One had the impression that there was dust in
the creases of her face. Winston followed her down the passage.
These amateur repair jobs were an almost daily irritation.
Victory Mansions were old flats, built in 1930 or thereabouts,
and were falling to pieces. The plaster flaked constantly from
ceilings and walls, the pipes burst in every hard frost, the roof
leaked whenever there was snow, the heating system was usually
running at half steam when it was not closed down altogether from
motives of economy. Repairs, except what you could do for
yourself, had to be sanctioned by remote committees which were
liable to hold up even the mending of a window- pane for two
years. 'Of course it's only because Tom isn't home,' said Mrs
Parsons vaguely. The Parsons' flat was bigger than Winston's, and
dingy in a different way. Everything had a battered, trampled-on
look, as though the place had just been visited by some large
violent animal. Games impedimenta -- hockey-sticks,
boxing-gloves. a burst football, a pair of sweaty shorts turned
inside out -- lay all over the floor, and on the table there was
a litter of dirty dishes and dog-eared exercise-books. On the
walls were scarlet banners of the Youth League and the Spies, and
a full-sized poster of Big Brother. There was the usual
boiled-cabbage smell, common to the whole building, but it was
shot through by a sharper reek of sweat, which-one knew this at
the first sniff, though it was hard to say how was the sweat of
some person not present at the moment. In another room someone
with a comb and a piece of toilet paper was trying to keep tune
with the military music which was still issuing from the
telescreen. 'It's the children,' said Mrs Parsons, casting a
half- apprehensive glance at the door. 'They haven't been out
today. And of course-' She had a habit of breaking off her
sentences in the middle. The kitchen sink was full nearly to the
brim with filthy greenish water which smelt worse than ever of
cabbage. Winston knelt down and examined the angle-joint of the
pipe. He hated using his hands, and he hated bending down, which
was always liable to start him coughing. Mrs Parsons looked on
helplessly. 'Of course if Tom was home he'd put it right in a
moment,' she said. 'He loves anything like that. He's ever so
good with his hands, Tom is.' Parsons was Winston's
fellow-employee at the Ministry of Truth. He was a fattish but
active man of paralysing stupidity, a mass of imbecile
enthusiasms -- one of those completely unquestioning, devoted
drudges on whom, more even than on the Thought Police, the
stability of the Party depended. At thirty-five he had just been
unwillingly evicted from the Youth League, and before graduating
into the Youth League he had managed to stay on in the Spies for
a year beyond the statutory age. At the Ministry he was employed
in some subordinate post for which intelligence was not required,
but on the other hand he was a leading figure on the Sports
Committee and all the other committees engaged in organizing
community hikes, spontaneous demonstrations, savings campaigns,
and voluntary activities generally. He would inform you with
quiet pride, between whiffs of his pipe, that he had put in an
appearance at the Community Centre every evening for the past
four years. An overpowering smell of sweat, a sort of unconscious
testimony to the strenuousness of his life, followed him about
wherever he went, and even remained behind him after he had gone.
'Have you got a spanner?-said Winston, fiddling with the nut on
the angle-joint. 'A spanner,' said Mrs Parsons, immediately
becoming invertebrate. 'I don't know, I'm sure. Perhaps the
children -' There was a trampling of boots and another blast on
the comb as the children charged into the living-room. Mrs
Parsons brought the spanner. Winston let out the water and
disgustedly removed the clot of human hair that had blocked up
the pipe. He cleaned his fingers as best he could in the cold
water from the tap and went back into the other room. 'Up with
your hands!' yelled a savage voice. A handsome, tough-looking boy
of nine had popped up from behind the table and was menacing him
with a toy automatic pistol, while his small sister, about two
years younger, made the same gesture with a fragment of wood.
Both of them were dressed in the blue shorts, grey shirts, and
red neckerchiefs which were the uniform of the Spies. Winston
raised his hands above his head, but with an uneasy feeling, so
vicious was the boy's demeanour, that it was not altogether a
game. 'You're a traitor!' yelled the boy. 'You're a thought-
criminal! You're a Eurasian spy! I'll shoot you, I'll vaporize
you, I'll send you to the salt mines!' Suddenly they were both
leaping round him, shouting 'Traitor!' and 'Thought-criminal!'
the little girl imitating her brother in every movement. It was
somehow slightly frightening, like the gambolling of tiger cubs
which will soon grow up into man-eaters. There was a sort of
calculating ferocity in the boy's eye, a quite evident desire to
hit or kick Winston and a consciousness of being very nearly big
enough to do so. It was a good job it was not a real pistol he
was holding, Winston thought. Mrs Parsons' eyes flitted nervously
from Winston to the children, and back again. In the better light
of the living-room he noticed with interest that there actually was
dust in the creases of her face. 'They do get so noisy,' she
said. 'They're disappointed because they couldn't go to see the
hanging, that's what it is. I'm too busy to take them. and Tom
won't be back from work in time.' 'Why can't we go and see the
hanging?' roared the boy in his huge voice. 'Want to see the
hanging ! Want to see the hanging!' chanted the little girl,
still capering round. Some Eurasian prisoners, guilty of war
crimes, were to be hanged in the Park that evening, Winston
remembered. This happened about once a month, and was a popular
spectacle. Children always clamoured to be taken to see it. He
took his leave of Mrs Parsons and made for the door. But he had
not gone six steps down the passage when something hit the back
of his neck an agonizingly painful blow. It was as though a
red-hot wire had been jabbed into him. He spun round just in time
to see Mrs Parsons dragging her son back into the doorway while
the boy pocketed a catapult. 'Goldstein!' bellowed the boy as the
door closed on him. But what most struck Winston was the look of
helpless fright on the woman's greyish face. Back in the flat he
stepped quickly past the telescreen and sat down at the table
again, still rubbing his neck. The music from the telescreen had
stopped. Instead, a clipped military voice was reading out, with
a sort of brutal relish, a description of the armaments of the
new Floating Fortress which had just been anchored between
lceland and the Faroe lslands. With those children, he thought,
that wretched woman must lead a life of terror. Another year, two
years, and they would be watching her night and day for symptoms
of unorthodoxy. Nearly all children nowadays were horrible. What
was worst of all was that by means of such organizations as the
Spies they were systematically turned into ungovernable little
savages, and yet this produced in them no tendency whatever to
rebel against the discipline of the Party. On the contrary, they
adored the Party and everything connected with it. The songs, the
processions, the banners, the hiking, the drilling with dummy
rifles, the yelling of slogans, the worship of Big Brother -- it
was all a sort of glorious game to them. All their ferocity was
turned outwards, against the enemies of the State, against
foreigners, traitors, saboteurs, thought-criminals. It was almost
normal for people over thirty to be frightened of their own
children. And with good reason, for hardly a week passed in which
The Times did not carry a paragraph describing how some
eavesdropping little sneak -- 'child hero' was the phrase
generally used -- had overheard some compromising remark and
denounced its parents to the Thought Police. The sting of the
catapult bullet had worn off. He picked up his pen
half-heartedly, wondering whether he could find something more to
write in the diary. Suddenly he began thinking of O'Brien again.
Years ago -- how long was it? Seven years it must be -- he had
dreamed that he was walking through a pitch-dark room. And
someone sitting to one side of him had said as he passed: 'We
shall meet in the place where there is no darkness.' It was said
very quietly, almost casually -- a statement, not a command. He
had walked on without pausing. What was curious was that at the
time, in the dream, the words had not made much impression on
him. It was only later and by degrees that they had seemed to
take on significance. He could not now remember whether it was
before or after having the dream that he had seen O'Brien for the
first time, nor could he remember when he had first identified
the voice as O'Brien's. But at any rate the identification
existed. It was O'Brien who had spoken to him out of the dark.
Winston had never been able to feel sure -- even after this
morning's flash of the eyes it was still impossible to be sure
whether O'Brien was a friend or an enemy. Nor did it even seem to
matter greatly. There was a link of understanding between them,
more important than affection or partisanship. 'We shall meet in
the place where there is no darkness,' he had said. Winston did
not know what it meant, only that in some way or another it would
come true. The voice from the telescreen paused. A trumpet call,
clear and beautiful, floated into the stagnant air. The voice
continued raspingly: 'Attention! Your attention, please ! A
newsflash has this moment arrived from the Malabar front. Our
forces in South India have won a glorious victory. I am
authorized to say that the action we are now reporting may well
bring the war within measurable distance of its end. Here is the
newsflash -' Bad news coming, thought Winston. And sure enough,
following on a gory description of the annihilation of a Eurasian
army, with stupendous figures of killed and prisoners, came the
announcement that, as from next week, the chocolate ration would
be reduced from thirty grammes to twenty. Winston belched again.
The gin was wearing off, leaving a deflated feeling. The
telescreen -- perhaps to celebrate the victory, perhaps to drown
the memory of the lost chocolate -- crashed into 'Oceania, 'tis
for thee'. You were supposed to stand to attention. However, in
his present position he was invisible. 'Oceania, 'tis for thee'
gave way to lighter music. Winston walked over to the window,
keeping his back to the telescreen. The day was still cold and
clear. Somewhere far away a rocket bomb exploded with a dull,
reverberating roar. About twenty or thirty of them a week were
falling on London at present. Down in the street the wind flapped
the torn poster to and fro, and the word INGSOC
fitfully appeared and vanished. Ingsoc. The sacred principles of
Ingsoc. Newspeak, doublethink, the mutability of the past. He
felt as though he were wandering in the forests of the sea
bottom, lost in a monstrous world where he himself was the
monster. He was alone. The past was dead, the future was
unimaginable. What certainty had he that a single human creature
now living was on his side? And what way of knowing that the
dominion of the Party would not endure for ever? Like an
answer, the three slogans on the white face of the Ministry of
Truth came back to him:
WAR IS PEACE FREEDOM IS SLAVERY IGNORANCE IS
STRENGTH
He took a twenty-five cent piece out of his
pocket. There, too, in tiny clear lettering, the same slogans
were inscribed, and on the other face of the coin the head of Big
Brother. Even from the coin the eyes pursued you. On coins, on
stamps, on the covers of books, on banners, on posters, and on
the wrappings of a cigarette Packet -- everywhere. Always the
eyes watching you and the voice enveloping you. Asleep or awake,
working or eating, indoors or out of doors, in the bath or in bed
-- no escape. Nothing was your own except the few cubic
centimetres inside your skull. The sun had shifted round, and the
myriad windows of the Ministry of Truth, with the light no longer
shining on them, looked grim as the loopholes of a fortress. His
heart quailed before the enormous pyramidal shape. It was too
strong, it could not be stormed. A thousand rocket bombs would
not batter it down. He wondered again for whom he was writing the
diary. For the future, for the past -- for an age that might be
imaginary. And in front of him there lay not death but
annihilation. The diary would be reduced to ashes and himself to
vapour. Only the Thought Police would read what he had written,
before they wiped it out of existence and out of memory. How
could you make appeal to the future when not a trace of you, not
even an anonymous word scribbled on a piece of paper, could
physically survive? The telescreen struck fourteen. He must leave
in ten minutes. He had to be back at work by fourteen-thirty.
Curiously, the chiming of the hour seemed to have put new heart
into him. He was a lonely ghost uttering a truth that nobody
would ever hear. But so long as he uttered it, in some obscure
way the continuity was not broken. It was not by making yourself
heard but by staying sane that you carried on the human heritage.
He went back to the table, dipped his pen, and wrote: To the
future or to the past, to a time when thought is free, when men
are different from one another and do not live alone -- to a time
when truth exists and what is done cannot be undone: From
the age of uniformity, from the age of solitude, from the age of
Big Brother, from the age of doublethink -- greetings ! He
was already dead, he reflected. It seemed to him that it was only
now, when he had begun to be able to formulate his thoughts, that
he had taken the decisive step. The consequences of every act are
included in the act itself. He wrote: Thoughtcrime does not
entail death: thoughtcrime IS death. Now he had
recognized himself as a dead man it became important to stay
alive as long as possible. Two fingers of his right hand were
inkstained. It was exactly the kind of detail that might betray
you. Some nosing zealot in the Ministry (a woman, probably:
someone like the little sandy- haired woman or the dark-haired
girl from the Fiction Department) might start wondering why he
had been writing during the lunch interval, why he had used an
oldfashioned pen, what he had been writing -- and then
drop a hint in the appropriate quarter. He went to the bathroom
and carefully scrubbed the ink away with the gritty dark-brown
soap which rasped your skin like sandpaper and was therefore well
adapted for this purpose. He put the diary away in the drawer. It
was quite useless to think of hiding it, but he could at least
make sure whether or not its existence had been discovered. A
hair laid across the page-ends was too obvious. With the tip of
his finger he picked up an identifiable grain of whitish dust and
deposited it on the corner of the cover, where it was bound to be
shaken off if the book was moved.
x x x
- WINSTON was
dreaming of his mother.
- He must, he thought, have been ten or eleven years old
when his mother had disappeared. She was a tall,
statuesque, rather silent woman with slow movements and
magnificent fair hair. His father he remembered more
vaguely as dark and thin, dressed always in neat dark
clothes (Winston remembered especially the very thin
soles of his father's shoes) and wearing spectacles. The
two of them must evidently have been swallowed up in one
of the first great purges of the fifties.
- At this moment his mother was sitting in some place deep
down beneath him, with his young sister in her arms. He
did not remember his sister at all, except as a tiny,
feeble baby, always silent, with large, watchful eyes.
Both of them were looking up at him. They were down in
some subterranean place -- the bottom of a well, for
instance, or a very deep grave -- but it was a place
which, already far below him, was itself moving
downwards. They were in the saloon of a sinking ship,
looking up at him through the darkening water. There was
still air in the saloon, they could still see him and he
them, but all the while they were sinking down, down into
the green waters which in another moment must hide them
from sight for ever. He was out in the light and air
while they were being sucked down to death, and they were
down there because he was up here. He knew it and
they knew it, and he could see the knowledge in their
faces. There was no reproach either in their faces or in
their hearts, only the knowledge that they must die in
order that he might remain alive, and that this was part
of the unavoidable order of things.
- He could not remember what had happened, but he knew in
his dream that in some way the lives of his mother and
his sister had been sacrificed to his own. It was one of
those dreams which, while retaining the characteristic
dream scenery, are a continuation of one's intellectual
life, and in which one becomes aware of facts and ideas
which still seem new and valuable after one is awake. The
thing that now suddenly struck Winston was that his
mother's death, nearly thirty years ago, had been tragic
and sorrowful in a way that was no longer possible.
Tragedy, he perceived, belonged to the ancient time, to a
time when there was still privacy, love, and friendship,
and when the members of a family stood by one another
without needing to know the reason. His mother's memory
tore at his heart because she had died loving him, when
he was too young and selfish to love her in return, and
because somehow, he did not remember how, she had
sacrificed herself to a conception of loyalty that was
private and unalterable. Such things, he saw, could not
happen today. Today there were fear, hatred, and pain,
but no dignity of emotion, no deep or complex sorrows.
All this he seemed to see in the large eyes of his mother
and his sister, looking up at him through the green
water, hundreds of fathoms down and still sinking.
- Suddenly he was standing on short springy turf, on a
summer evening when the slanting rays of the sun gilded
the ground. The landscape that he was looking at recurred
so often in his dreams that he was never fully certain
whether or not he had seen it in the real world. In his
waking thoughts he called it the Golden Country. It was
an old, rabbit-bitten pasture, with a foot-track
wandering across it and a molehill here and there. In the
ragged hedge on the opposite side of the field the boughs
of the elm trees were swaying very faintly in the breeze,
their leaves just stirring in dense masses like women's
hair. Somewhere near at hand, though out of sight, there
was a clear, slow-moving stream where dace were swimming
in the pools under the willow trees.
- The girl with dark hair was coming towards them across
the field. With what seemed a single movement she tore
off her clothes and flung them disdainfully aside. Her
body was white and smooth, but it aroused no desire in
him, indeed he barely looked at it. What overwhelmed him
in that instant was admiration for the gesture with which
she had thrown her clothes aside. With its grace and
carelessness it seemed to annihilate a whole culture, a
whole system of thought, as though Big Brother and the
Party and the Thought Police could all be swept into
nothingness by a single splendid movement of the arm.
That too was a gesture belonging to the ancient time.
Winston woke up with the word 'Shakespeare' on his lips.
- The telescreen was giving forth an ear-splitting whistle
which continued on the same note for thirty seconds. It
was nought seven fifteen, getting-up time for office
workers. Winston wrenched his body out of bed -- naked,
for a member of the Outer Party received only 3,000
clothing coupons annually, and a suit of pyjamas was 600
-- and seized a dingy singlet and a pair of shorts that
were lying across a chair. The Physical Jerks would begin
in three minutes. The next moment he was doubled up by a
violent coughing fit which nearly always attacked him
soon after waking up. It emptied his lungs so completely
that he could only begin breathing again by lying on his
back and taking a series of deep gasps. His veins had
swelled with the effort of the cough, and the varicose
ulcer had started itching.
- 'Thirty to forty group!' yapped a piercing female voice.
'Thirty to forty group! Take your places, please.
Thirties to forties!'
- Winston sprang to attention in front of the telescreen,
upon which the image of a youngish woman, scrawny but
muscular, dressed in tunic and gym-shoes, had already
appeared.
- 'Arms bending and stretching!' she rapped out. 'Take your
time by me. One, two, three, four! One,
two, three, four! Come on, comrades, put a bit of life
into it! One, two, three four! One two,
three, four! . . .'
- The pain of the coughing fit had not quite driven out of
Winston's mind the impression made by his dream, and the
rhythmic movements of the exercise restored it somewhat.
As he mechanically shot his arms back and forth, wearing
on his face the look of grim enjoyment which was
considered proper during the Physical Jerks, he was
struggling to think his way backward into the dim period
of his early childhood. It was extraordinarily difficult.
Beyond the late fifties everything faded. When there were
no external records that you could refer to, even the
outline of your own life lost its sharpness. You
remembered huge events which had quite probably not
happened, you remembered the detail of incidents without
being able to recapture their atmosphere, and there were
long blank periods to which you could assign nothing.
Everything had been different then. Even the names of
countries, and their shapes on the map, had been
different. Airstrip One, for instance, had not been so
called in those days: it had been called England or
Britain, though London, he felt fairly certain, had
always been called London.
- Winston could not definitely remember a time when his
country had not been at war, but it was evident that
there had been a fairly long interval of peace during his
childhood, because one of his early memories was of an
air raid which appeared to take everyone by surprise.
Perhaps it was the time when the atomic bomb had fallen
on Colchester. He did not remember the raid itself, but
he did remember his father's hand clutching his own as
they hurried down, down, down into some place deep in the
earth, round and round a spiral staircase which rang
under his feet and which finally so wearied his legs that
he began whimpering and they had to stop and rest. His
mother, in her slow, dreamy way, was following a long way
behind them. She was carrying his baby sister -- or
perhaps it was only a bundle of blankets that she was
carrying: he was not certain whether his sister had been
born then. Finally they had emerged into a noisy, crowded
place which he had realized to be a Tube station.
- There were people sitting all over the stone-flagged
floor, and other people, packed tightly together, were
sitting on metal bunks, one above the other. Winston and
his mother and father found themselves a place on the
floor, and near them an old man and an old woman were
sitting side by side on a bunk. The old man had on a
decent dark suit and a black cloth cap pushed back from
very white hair: his face was scarlet and his eyes were
blue and full of tears. He reeked of gin. It seemed to
breathe out of his skin in place of sweat, and one could
have fancied that the tears welling from his eyes were
pure gin. But though slightly drunk he was also suffering
under some grief that was genuine and unbearable. In his
childish way Winston grasped that some terrible thing,
something that was beyond forgiveness and could never be
remedied, had just happened. It also seemed to him that
he knew what it was. Someone whom the old man loved -- a
little granddaughter, perhaps had been killed. Every few
minutes the old man kept repeating:
- 'We didn't ought to 'ave trusted 'em. I said so, Ma,
didn't I? That's what comes of trusting 'em. I said so
all along. We didn't ought to 'ave trusted the buggers.
- But which buggers they didn't ought to have trusted
Winston could not now remember.
- Since about that time, war had been literally continuous,
though strictly speaking it had not always been the same
war. For several months during his childhood there had
been confused street fighting in London itself, some of
which he remembered vividly. But to trace out the history
of the whole period, to say who was fighting whom at any
given moment, would have been utterly impossible, since
no written record, and no spoken word, ever made mention
of any other alignment than the existing one. At this
moment, for example, in 1984 (if it was 1984), Oceania
was at war with Eurasia and in alliance with Eastasia. In
no public or private utterance was it ever admitted that
the three powers had at any time been grouped along
different lines. Actually, as Winston well knew, it was
only four years since Oceania had been at war with
Eastasia and in alliance with Eurasia. But that was
merely a piece of furtive knowledge which he happened to
possess because his memory was not satisfactorily under
control. Officially the change of partners had never
happened. Oceania was at war with Eurasia: therefore
Oceania had always been at war with Eurasia. The enemy of
the moment always represented absolute evil, and it
followed that any past or future agreement with him was
impossible.
- The frightening thing, he reflected for the ten
thousandth time as he forced his shoulders painfully
backward (with hands on hips, they were gyrating their
bodies from the waist, an exercise that was supposed to
be good for the back muscles) -- the frightening thing
was that it might all be true. If the Party could thrust
its hand into the past and say of this or that event, it
never happened -- that, surely, was more terrifying
than mere torture and death?
- The Party said that Oceania had never been in alliance
with Eurasia. He, Winston Smith, knew that Oceania had
been in alliance with Eurasia as short a time as four
years ago. But where did that knowledge exist? Only in
his own consciousness, which in any case must soon be
annihilated. And if all others accepted the lie which the
Party imposed -if all records told the same tale -- then
the lie passed into history and became truth. 'Who
controls the past,' ran the Party slogan, 'controls the
future: who controls the present controls the past.' And
yet the past, though of its nature alterable, never had
been altered. Whatever was true now was true from
everlasting to everlasting. It was quite simple. All that
was needed was an unending series of victories over your
own memory. 'Reality control', they called it: in
Newspeak, 'doublethink'
- 'Stand easy!' barked the instructress, a little more
genially.
- Winston sank his arms to his sides and slowly refilled
his lungs with air. His mind slid away into the
labyrinthine world of doublethink. To know and not to
know, to be conscious of complete truthfulness while
telling carefully constructed lies, to hold
simultaneously two opinions which cancelled out, knowing
them to be contradictory and believing in both of them,
to use logic against logic, to repudiate morality while
laying claim to it, to believe that democracy was
impossible and that the Party was the guardian of
democracy, to forget whatever it was necessary to forget,
then to draw it back into memory again at the moment when
it was needed, and then promptly to forget it again: and
above all, to apply the same process to the process
itself. That was the ultimate subtlety: consciously to
induce unconsciousness, and then, once again, to become
unconscious of the act of hypnosis you had just
performed. Even to understand the word 'doublethink'
involved the use of doublethink.
- The instructress had called them to attention again. 'And
now let's see which of us can touch our toes!' she said
enthusiastically. 'Right over from the hips, please,
comrades. One-two! One- two! . . .'
- Winston loathed this exercise, which sent shooting pains
all the way from his heels to his buttocks and often
ended by bringing on another coughing fit. The
half-pleasant quality went out of his meditations. The
past, he reflected, had not merely been altered, it had
been actually destroyed. For how could you establish even
the most obvious fact when there existed no record
outside your own memory? He tried to remember in what
year he had first heard mention of Big Brother. He
thought it must have been at some time in the sixties,
but it was impossible to be certain. In the Party
histories, of course, Big Brother figured as the leader
and guardian of the Revolution since its very earliest
days. His exploits had been gradually pushed backwards in
time until already they extended into the fabulous world
of the forties and the thirties, when the capitalists in
their strange cylindrical hats still rode through the
streets of London in great gleaming motor-cars or horse
carriages with glass sides. There was no knowing how much
of this legend was true and how much invented. Winston
could not even remember at what date the Party itself had
come into existence. He did not believe he had ever heard
the word Ingsoc before 1960, but it was possible that in
its Oldspeak form-'English Socialism', that is to say --
it had been current earlier. Everything melted into mist.
Sometimes, indeed, you could put your finger on a
definite lie. It was not true, for example, as was
claimed in the Party history books, that the Party had
invented aeroplanes. He remembered aeroplanes since his
earliest childhood. But you could prove nothing. There
was never any evidence. Just once in his whole life he
had held in his hands unmistakable documentary proof of
the falsification of an historical fact. And on that
occasion
- 'Smith !' screamed the shrewish voice from the
telescreen. '6079 Smith W.! Yes, you! Bend lower,
please! You can do better than that. You're not trying.
Lower, please! That's better, comrade. Now stand
at ease, the whole squad, and watch me.'
- A sudden hot sweat had broken out all over Winston's
body. His face remained completely inscrutable. Never
show dismay! Never show resentment! A single flicker of
the eyes could give you away. He stood watching while the
instructress raised her arms above her head and -- one
could not say gracefully, but with remarkable neatness
and efficiency -- bent over and tucked the first joint of
her fingers under her toes.
- 'There, comrades! That's how I want to see
you doing it. Watch me again. I'm thirty-nine and I've
had four children. Now look.' She bent over again. 'You
see my knees aren't bent. You can all do it if you want
to,' she added as she straightened herself up. 'Anyone
under forty- five is perfectly capable of touching his
toes. We don't all have the privilege of fighting in the
front line, but at least we can all keep fit. Remember
our boys on the Malabar front! And the sailors in the
Floating Fortresses! Just think what they have to
put up with. Now try again. That's better, comrade,
that's much better,' she added encouragingly as
Winston, with a violent lunge, succeeded in touching his
toes with knees unbent, for the first time in several
years.