Leon was born on 12 March in Jesenice, Slovenia. His father Nezir
came from Kosovo and his mother Fila from Macedonia.
Leon was four days old when his mother took him to Koãani
in Macedonia. The train journey lasted over 30 hours. Leon stayed in Macedonia.
Nezir and Fila moved to Maribor. He was a worker and she a charwoman.
Leon was three months old when his relatives from Macedonia sent him to
join his parents.
When Fila was on duty, Nezir used to silence the crying baby by
beating him up and stuffing toilet paper into his mouth.
Filas sister from Jesenice came unexpectedly for a visit,
found beaten-up Leon and took him with her to Jesenice.
Nezirs relatives took Leon to Kosovo where he stayed some
two or three months, and then Filas relatives took him to Macedonia.
Because of the large distance it was very rarely that his mother visited
Nezir and Fila moved to Bled.
Nezir and Fila moved to Celje, and Leon, now two years old, returned
to his parents. Nezir often beat Leon with a fishing rod. Leon was sent
to a foster home in Frankolovo, a village 15 km from Celje, where he stayed
several months. Later, his fathers brother took him to Kosovo, and
then his mothers relatives took him to Macedonia.
Fila got pregnant. Nezir did not want the child, but only allowed
Fila to abort when the foetus was already six months and a half old. A
quack doctor in Skopje in Macedonia did the abortion for 4,500 DEM.
Leon returned to Celje and started attending the primary school.
Nezir was very harsh and beat both Leon and Fila. He taught Leon to hit
Nezir and Fila divorced, but went on to live together. He worked
in the Cinkarna chemical factory, while she lost her job. Leon was sent
to a foster home in ·martno in Rosental. He quitted school and was
then sent to Macedonia, where he stayed a few months and then returned
to Slovenia. The street became his home.
Leon was committed to the VerÏej reform school. As a ten-year
old boy he often expressed a wish to die. The death of his uncle from
Macedonia, who had just become father to a son, affected him very much.
He said: "Why it wasnt me who died instead?" He was sent
to a psychiatric clinic in Zagreb, but was released after a few days.
Leon attended school in Macedonia. He heavily burnt his head.
Fila got a job and lost it again; she has been unemployed ever
Leon returned to Celje, but the social welfare service sent him
to the reform school in Smlednik in the Upper Carniola region.
Nezir was granted a one-bedroom apartment.
Leon ran away from the school; he did not join his father or his
mother, however, but lived and slept on the street. One cold autumn night
the police found him and took him against his will to his
father, who beat him up very badly. Three days later, on 21 December,
at around 11 PM, Nezir beat Fila and Leon. Leon stabbed him several times
with a kitchen knife, to death. Nezir was buried in Kosovo. Fila and Leon
spent several days under observation in the psychiatric clinics in Vojnik
Kept in the Smlednik reform school, Leon attempted suicide for
the first time. Later he will try to make suicide at least twenty times
The war in Slovenia lasted only ten days. The Slovene authorities
put Leon five times onto the aeroplane for Macedonia, but he always came
back, the last time on foot passing through the war territory in Bosnia.
Leon lived in the reform institution in Radeãe. He gravely
beat a fellow boarder and broke up the living room.
He started taking hard drugs, and criminal offences became a part
of his life.
Leon lived alone in a humble apartment leased by his mother.
Fila returned, and they lived together by means of her modest pension.
Leon was frequently oppressive to her.
Leon tried to give up drugs in communes in Italy and Spain, but
did not succeed.
He finished a night primary school with success. He wanted to get
a job, but the surroundings rejected him. He was still taking methadone
Leon still has problems both with drugs and his mother. Fila moves
Leon prepares himself for a visit of his girlfriend from Macedonia.
He paints the apartment.